I'm rediscovering my passion in life. I'm finally rediscovering my drive, I've been living like a zombie for too many years. That time is over. This is now. :) This is where we start.

And i believe that my 4+ months was not wasted, I was able to help one of my friends to see some of the skills she has, to improve her self confidence, to make her feel happier.

I've also realized how two-faced people can be, and I've emerged from this so much smarter, and stronger, and wiser with a clear direction where to head.

Of course, I also realize that I've never really been happy here in this country, however since I am still young we shall see where the drive takes me for now the only reason I'm still here is because the money here is better.

To quote success built to last: Success in the long run has less to do with finding the best idea, organizational structure, or business model for an enterprise, than with discovering what matters to us as individuals. It is here, at a very personal level, where thought and feeling inform each other, that creativity begins,n and where the potential for enduring organizations emerges.

It is the people that matters. My soon to be ex company should learn this by heart.

Goodbye, suckers! :)

When you let go of old cheese, you start to see that it is mouldy and you have been ignoring the mould all the while.

When you let go of old cheese, only then will you start to look for new cheese and see that new cheese is better than the mouldy old cheese.

When you laugh at yourself, you embrace change. And you believe that change is good for you.

Goodbye old cheese. I'm discarding my fears now and i'm going to look for fresh new cheese.

I was so blinded by the money that I failed to see that my personal development was stuck like a rut. I was becoming someone I vowed not to become. Superficial, materialistic, money-minded. Let this be a lesson to be learned. That people can sometimes be superficial, and warm on the surface but will not hesitate to backstab you whenever they please. Goodbye and...


Hello world! :)

Split personalities.

Mornings i'm like crap i want more challenge *browses around and afternoons i'm like this is not so bad time to go home already! :)

How.

I think that working in an MNC is SO overrated.

Just my humble opinion. In a huge international organization like this you dont even meet your big big boss CEO and he/she has no idea absolutely of who you are, your organization here in some tiny asia country is just a dot in the whole pyramid structure and you are not even a dot in the whole organization. And all the positions are already fixed on your job functions, and what you do, who does what, cross functional is possible but highly limited and everything is just so niched. I guess it always boils down to the name of the organization you are working for, just like the brands that you wear. It's so fake but you feel so much better saying you have a LV bag rather than a pasar malam bag, no? But dont get me wrong I still havent bought into that yet, dont see a need to, altho the whole of Singapore has one each. Heh.

And I am conflicted everyday mornings i'm like oh mans afternoon i'm like this job is not bad. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side, or rather, the other departments. And then i'm not even sure thats what I want to do, do I want to stay in Science? I'm scared of making that change, taking that huge leap.

Decisions, decisions, decisions. And procrastination. Haha.

Newater, Sentosa, Underwater World, Ion Orchard Opening

10/10/09 Decided that this week we'll break out of the usual boring stay-at-home/go shopping malls and make a trip to Sentosa for the first time ever in the 4 years that we've been here :) And whats a trip to Sentosa without making a trip to Underwater World? :) Comes bundled in with a visit to the dolphin lagoon so was kinda still okay for the price
Fishies! And some big ass lazy white shark-like/sharks fishes who are contented to just show you their tails

Siloso beach, me excited to be at a beach again albeit a no waves beach and kang squinting in the sun lol ;p The water was clear tho very nice :)
haha worms :)
My fave sea turtles
Siloso beach looks decent no? Just no waves -.- and no fishes -.- and no shells -.-



You can put your head inside its mouth damn huge
Hello dugong aka sea mermaid busy greedily chomping on algae
Acting like a tourist with a water bottle
Entrance to Sentosa as viewed on the monorail

The week before - Went to visit the Newater plant for Kang's FYP
RO distillation process
Some stations for kiddy games
Micropores? For filtration. Overall nothing much was more to cater for secondary school kids.

Last night went for ION orchard's opening - only went there cos wang lee hom was performing haha. Had to wait agonizingly for 1 hour plus with an empty stomach cos they had fashion shows + some dragon dance first. Couldnt really see clearly also cos stood super far away from the stage - they had it all barricaded from public. Whats the use of advertising in the public newspaper when you need a VIP pass to go in?!
Lazy to upload videos of wang lee hom, caught him waving to the crowds later whilst going up an escalator :)

We then proceeded to have a pillow fight :)

yums :)

I think that somehow in the pursue of $$ and all things materialistic I've lost my sight on one super important thing that I've stressed again and again that nothing is more important than this:

Family. And Love.

Okay, that's 2 things. But yea, how much money can you fork out to buy love? or family? None, baby. None. Even if you had zillions you still cant buy a family, or love, and i mean real love, not fake gold-digger love which is so commonly found nowadays.

Now to steer myself back and remind myself constantly. Whenever you think of $$ this place seems like wow so nice but if you look at family and love this place is EMPTY. there's nothing there. It's empty. ( The click five-empty lyrics comes to mind)

When i balik rumah on certain weekends i see a dad who works in sg and goes back every weekend and his small kids (3 of them, 2 small boys like 4 5 yrs old)will always cry and tell their daddy all they want is him to not go and leave them. But duty calls and he still leaves for work anyway.

And if you think about it, would you make such a sacrifice? Your kids now are still young they will miss you and pine for you but when they are teenagers/all grown up you didnt spend much time at all you're just the fella who came on weekends ate some meals say be good and go back. Which sounds like somebody I know...

There wont be a bond. Would you sacrifice that for money? That bond that is so priceless it comes once in a lifetime and if you dont cherish it well its hard for you to get it back I can tell you that.

Would you?

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